Introversion and My Need for Solidarity

AKA Why I Stay in My Room All Evening

Just for a moment, imagine your phone. If you have your phone out from the moment you get up, calling people, texting, what have you, by the middle of the day it'll be close to dying. It's a simple concept: too much "work" for your phone and it'll be drained. 

On the flip side, if you leave your phone charged up most of the morning and only use it for a certain amount of time one night, then your phone can have the charge to actually not die during this time. It'll be fully charged and prepared for the long (or at least, seemingly long) time.

That's how introversion works. 

For me, by the time I make it through my classes of the day (which include talking to people and to professors, on top of doing whatever is required in class), I'm exhausted. Maybe not physically, but mentally. I don't want to do anything. If I have all morning to relax and keep to myself, I'm much more likely to be willing to hang out with people or go somewhere that evening. 

Introversion is not necessarily shyness. Shyness is being afraid or too uncomfortable to hang out with people (right now, we'll ignore my social anxiety in favor of explaining my introversion). Introversion is when you find more comfort and happiness when you're left to yourself and allowed to "recharge". 

Even with people I know, it still takes a toll on me. As much as I love my friends, my family, I cannot handle not having a few moments to myself.

With introversion, it's like everyone I talk to drains my 'battery' little by little. Being able to hole up in my room, do what I feel like doing, and just chill, is something I need. 

I cannot be happy constantly surrounded by people. It's too draining and too taxing. I need time to myself. 

And that's ok. There's nothing wrong with it. Introversion isn't bad (and neither is extroversion, for that matter). 

Some people think maybe it's bad to be alone all the time but I feel like, if I'm happy this way, let me be. I enjoy being alone and I take comfort in only having myself for company.